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Jean Skirt with Judy Felix

"Like God is Haitian"

Happy Easter guys!

As said in the previous post and conveyed in the previous episodes of Lekol Legliz Lakay, this season will have a revolving chair bringing in different guests to speak on a variety of topics that we may all be speaking on within our own personal circles.

This episode was no different. Naikey brought in Ms. Judy Felix, and the conversation regarded our journeys back to God.

Naikey began the interview by asking Judy our favorite question: What does Lekol, Legliz, Lakay mean to you?

Judy then explained how everything she did was centered around the church, school and home especially - being that she was the first girl in her immediate family.

The ladies joked (but seriously) about how we have all lived the same experience - making up lies and living this double life, changing in school bathrooms to be the girls we wanted to be with our friends - that was not accepted at home.

Judy did not have her first pair of jeans until the eight grade, and wore jean skirts!

And girlies don't be shy or act like that wasn't you because I had the jean skirts, Naikey had the jean skirts, Judy had the jean skirt - so you probably did too.

When Judy finally wore jean pants - it wasn't her parents who bought it. Her friend bought her the jeans and brought it to school for her.

"I had never seen my butt like that before; I had never seen my thighs like that before...." - Judy didn't know she had a body-ody-ody!

Now let's take it back to her upbringing.

Judy explained her church's history: The doctrine (seven-day-adventist like) came from a white man who traveled to Haiti and preached his gospel.

To Naikey's surprise "I thought only Haitians could be Christian, like God is Haitian".

Naikey also added that she feels like college is where the Haitian girlies really come out of their shell, with Judy saying, that is where she lost herself - who she was before.

"I had a diverse group of friends - I had never been exposed to such different people". Judy then continued with remembering people would say they didn't believe in a God - but would ask her to pray for them - like her prayers would really save them from their troubles. That's where we always say "believe in your epis" - don't forget to buy some murch, wink wink!

The girls expressed how Haitian parents don't like the idea of the children, especially their daughters, living on campus.

Por qué?

There is this intense fear of everything they see on the movies coming to life - the parties, sex, drugs, drinking, you name it. Some say it's separation anxiety and the loss of the control they would have over their children when they are living in their homes.

But none the less, Judy said during her collegiate experience is where she learned the difference between the God that was taught to her and the God she met. She then explained God speaking to her as such "Me as God I am here; I am not attached to a church or denomination".

She tested the theory if God was really there - putting herself in dangerous places so God would come and find her.

The comparison could be made to how children sometimes get in trouble on purpose so their parent can come and get them, proving the parent still cares. Judy found a father in God, and learned how to be a daughter.

The conversation then looked at how us, the Haitian girlies are: "Some Haitian girlies pretend, or hold up a persona for their families" says Naikey, which is definitely true.

Then Judy brought up how a part of the reason why she was smoking and drinking so much in college is that she had become a people pleaser.

She started to see the battle between her body wanting to go out to the club, get drunk and be high and her inner self not wanting to partake in these activities at all.

The feeling of being pulled in two different directions at the same time - can you relate?

What was pulling you? Who were you trying to please? Were you fighting yourself?

Were you trying to please a partner, but neglecting yourself?

Judy talked about how she was in a relationship that taught her too much too early, to include seeing her body as an instrument for someone else.

"My body was physically reacting to something that doesn't feel good; I didn't know how to say no" - Judy explaining her physical interactions with her then partner.

She knew this relationship wasn't good, "I was looking for God to end it" - meaning she wanted to break up with her then boyfriend but didn't know how to - but then he broke up with her. And although it took her sometime to breakout of the depression from the breakup, she then realized that it had to be God.

"I can relate to that" says Naikey, and so can I. I remember being with someone and being so hurt when I finally decided to no longer be in contact with him. It took some time, but after realizing that God didn't want me there, and seeing where I am a year later, and the people God has both added and subtracted from life - I will always take God's math over mine.

"How the hell did you get here" asks Naikey after lots of laughter in reference to Naikey's disbelief in where Judy has been and where she has brought herself to.

"I got out of there through Christ who strengthens me. I jumped off the cliff multiple times and God kept saving me. I found my father - I didn't find the God of my parents, the God of the people around me, the God of religion, I found my father. Once I learned how to be a daughter - that changed everything for me".

So on this day of our Lord and Father Jesus Christ, Happy Easter!

We're all on our journeys and deserve to matriculate through them with ease.

Remember to be kind during this season, and check on your cousins.

With love,

Sarah Chanel

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